A trans woman's reading of Sayonara Wild Hearts

2020-06-30

Screenshot from Sayonara Wild Hearts: A person in front of a Falafel restaurant, all in a blue color pallette.

Sayonara Wild Hearts is a great game with awesome music and visual style, but there's more to it. For me, it is about a trans woman's survival while exploring, finding and accepting her true self. Hear me out why:

(spoiler warning, I guess)

β€ͺThe protagonist starts out as a sad and fairly androgynous (by mainstream standards) girl (according to the narrator) wearing trans pride socks, then travels to a dreamy electronic-music-filled land where everything is in trans, lesbian and bi pride colors and she encounters various sort of stereotypes of queer, mostly female-presenting people (butches, femmes, etc), moves on past each of them, defeats death itself (!!!), until she "beats" the final boss with cheek kisses (which I read as rejecting the others and accepting that one). Then she returns to reality with a clearly femme look and appearing much happier.‬

Index: Transition Related Posts

2020-06-29

Articles (πŸ“„), short notes (πŸ“) and archived Twitter threads (🐦) relavant to my trans experience, in chronological order:

A Little Less Useless

2020-04-03

middle-finger emoji and virus emoji over purple background

Ever since it became clear that COVID-19 is going to be really serious I've felt quite useless. I work as a manager for a software engineering team in an e-commerce company. Sure, ordering stuff online is kind of a big thing at the moment with everyone (hopefully) isolating themselves at home. But my work doesn't safe anyones life right now. I'm not a doctor or nurse, I can't sew protective gear, I'm not a biologist who can work on a vaccine, and even though I personally am probably safe due to a usually very solid immune system, I can't risk doing grocery shopping for older people in my neighbourhood because I have a close relative who's at very high risk who I occasionally do need to see in person.

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Remote Work Mental Health

2020-03-11

As of today, 11th of March 2020, an increasing number of companies have decided to require people to work from home if possible to contain the spread of COVID-19. For many this is a new mode of working that can feel strange and unfamiliar.

I've worked remotely over longer periods of time before when I was a freelancer and it wasn't always easy. I'm not a good remote worker, I get distracted easily, I forget to eat lunch and only notice when my blood sugar level plummets in the afternoon, my sleep often got messed up, and so on.

So, I want to share a few basics that helped me maintain my mental (and overall) health during remote work.

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