A trans woman's reading of Sayonara Wild Hearts


Screenshot from Sayonara Wild Hearts: A person in front of a Falafel restaurant, all in a blue color pallette.

Sayonara Wild Hearts is a great game with awesome music and visual style, but there's more to it. For me, it is about a trans woman's survival while exploring, finding and accepting her true self. Hear me out why:

(spoiler warning, I guess)

β€ͺThe protagonist starts out as a sad and fairly androgynous (by mainstream standards) girl (according to the narrator) wearing trans pride socks, then travels to a dreamy electronic-music-filled land where everything is in trans, lesbian and bi pride colors and she encounters various sort of stereotypes of queer, mostly female-presenting people (butches, femmes, etc), moves on past each of them, defeats death itself (!!!), until she "beats" the final boss with cheek kisses (which I read as rejecting the others and accepting that one). Then she returns to reality with a clearly femme look and appearing much happier.‬

Index: Transition Related Posts


Articles (πŸ“„), short notes (πŸ“) and archived Twitter threads (🐦) relavant to my trans experience, in chronological order:

A Little Less Useless


middle-finger emoji and virus emoji over purple background

Ever since it became clear that COVID-19 is going to be really serious I've felt quite useless. I work as a manager for a software engineering team in an e-commerce company. Sure, ordering stuff online is kind of a big thing at the moment with everyone (hopefully) isolating themselves at home. But my work doesn't safe anyones life right now. I'm not a doctor or nurse, I can't sew protective gear, I'm not a biologist who can work on a vaccine, and even though I personally am probably safe due to a usually very solid immune system, I can't risk doing grocery shopping for older people in my neighbourhood because I have a close relative who's at very high risk who I occasionally do need to see in person.

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Remote Work Mental Health


As of today, 11th of March 2020, an increasing number of companies have decided to require people to work from home if possible to contain the spread of COVID-19. For many this is a new mode of working that can feel strange and unfamiliar.

I've worked remotely over longer periods of time before when I was a freelancer and it wasn't always easy. I'm not a good remote worker, I get distracted easily, I forget to eat lunch and only notice when my blood sugar level plummets in the afternoon, my sleep often got messed up, and so on.

So, I want to share a few basics that helped me maintain my mental (and overall) health during remote work.

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